“And even to your old age I am he; and even to hoar hairs will I carry you: I have made, and I will bear; even I will carry, and will deliver you.” (Isaiah 46:4)
Earlier today, I had a discussion with a dear friend about how this scripture verse tells the story of God’s faithfulness in my life.
I got drafted into God’s Army dramatically from secular work, at the prime of life. I had rejected all God’s advances to me for service, because I was afraid of an unknown future.
We were borderline poverty, even though I had a good fulltime time job and other income yielding businesses to supplement the income.
Can you imagine how irrational and wicked I thought God was, to demand I do fulltime ministry work?
How would my family survive without an income, when we could barely survive with multiple incomes?
That was the major reason I resisted the call into fulltime God’s work.
Back then, Christian ministry was considered an option for school dropouts, failures. Lazy people, etc.
And I was none of the above.
So, why would I just dump life and become a pastor?
From where I was, a call into ministry was similar to a life sentence into abject poverty with hard labor.
I did try my best to run away from the ‘Call’, but God caught me in His stride effortlessly.
No wonder the Psalmist declared,
“O lord, thou hast searched me, and known me.Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it altogether. Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me…Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence? If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there. If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea; Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me. If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me. Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee. For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb.I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.” (Psalm 139:1-14)
Resisting God’s will is costly:
Before I caught on to how Omniscient God is, my life went downhill, as I continued to pursue my economic interests at the detriment of my calling.
Then one fateful day, God checkmated all my moves, and I ran to do His bidding, too scared to even consider disobedience an option.
The only way I can explain how I felt that day is through the words of Job when he said,
“I have heard of thee by the hearing of the ear: but now mine eye seeth thee. Wherefore I abhor myself, and repent in dust and ashes” (Job 42:5-6)
Reverential fear of God indicates wisdom
Dear reader, the driving force of my life was to the welfare of my children. I was economically driven because I wanted them to have the advantages I never had.
However, when God made me see that I was idolizing my children and economic pursuit above Him, and that whatever is exalted against Him will be taken out, I had a mind reset.
I did not need to seek confirmation. I knew that the drama had ended and reality has begun. That was the day and hour, I yielded to fulltime God’s Work.
Fast forward to almost three decades later:
God took over our lives, and then intensive training for the Work started.
The worst things that happened to me were the result of my stubbornness. The bests things started happening in my yieldedness.
God’s grace worked for my children throughout their school years and the other aspects of life.
The children that I thought would not survive without my stable earning power, have become the channel of blessings to me and the Work.
Without secular pensions, God through His faithful children are paying my bills and giving me the care and support that is way out of this world’s system.
God is indeed the Promise keeper. I have all I need. And my bloodline I’d healed.
People of God, if you have received Word from God, you can take it to the bank.
If you are resisting the Call upon your life, you are being as foolish as the foolish virgins.
If you humble yourself, you will receive more grace and exaltation.
Where I am today is the result of God’s grace and favor outworking in my life.
Shalom. From Hephzibah Christly #theSpiritualWarrior